A believer’s life is one struggle after another. Having people around
who are not receptive to your faith is your real test. So long as you remain
conscious of the fact that, in your heart, you will never accept any prayer
addressed to anyone other than Allah, it is a blessing. However, the worrying
factor I sense in your approach is that you sound hopeless about convincing
other people of your status – that of a Muslim. If you seriously feel that
persecution will be harsh should you choose to differ from the socially
acceptable religion of Christianity, then you should, secretively, keep
condemning the false acts. However, your aim should be to become a stronger
Muslim – one who would care more about what Allah accepts as virtuous rather
than considering what would be more acceptable to people.
Speaking of people, I trust that you should have some Muslims in your area who
must have played a role in your conversion to Islam. I would strongly urge you
to keep interacting with them, in order that you may share problems and get some
essential support. The functions of ‘exhorting/encouraging each other about the
‘truth’ and ‘exhorting/encouraging’ each other to persevere on the truth’ are
the prescribed means to provide that kind of support in Islam. When you have
someone constantly reminding you that life is a trial, and that you must
struggle to come through stronger and more devoted, it is a great blessing. To
feel threatened is very natural, and in fact, an experience that every Muslim
goes through. At times, the only key to success under such circumstances is to
keep discussing and receiving words of encouragement from fellow believers.
Towards the end, I’ll quote a Hadīth:
Mu‘āwiyyah (rta) wrote to ‘Ā’ishah (rta) saying: ‘Send me a letter and advise
me, briefly’. So ‘Ā’ishah (rta) wrote to Mu‘āwiyyah (rta) saying: ‘Peace be
upon you. I heard the Messenger of Allah say, whoever seeks to please Allah by
making people angry, Allah will protect him from people; whoever seeks to please
people by making Allah angry, Allah will leave him to the people. Peace be upon
you’. (Tirmadhī, No: 2414).
The intent of the Prophet’s message is not to instigate the practitioners of
Islam against the deviants and oppressors; rather, it is to point out that our
primary objective should be to please Allah. Everything else is secondary.
Therefore, one should pray for a faith that drives us to such levels of strength
and courage. Till then, keep reminding yourself of what is wrong, why it is
wrong, and what is right, why it is right.