“Measurement”
is not always easy, especially if what is measured is
intangible. How can we measure the degree of our tazkiyah
(spiritual purification) in the path of God? It is easy to
think that we are very good, or very bad in terms of
tazkiyah, however this is all very subjective and does
not give us any real perspective on our strengths and
weaknesses.
In fact, we can
use some measures in order to assess how “good” we really are
in this. Here, four important measures are described:
1. How keen are
we in doing our prayers? Do we find our prayers boring or are
they enjoyable? What are the things that occupy our minds
while we pray? Perhaps, a clue to improving our spirituality
is in recognizing these things. The extent to which we enjoy
our prayers and look forward to them can be an indication of
how much we have managed to purify our soul in the path of
God.
2. As Muslims,
we know a lot about concepts like trusting in God, leaving
things to Him, etc. One of the main points of all worship we
do is to be good at these. How do we perform in practice when
we come across an apparently worrying or stressful situation?
Do our actions indicate that in reality, we do not really
believe in someone up there who takes care of things for us,
or do they indicate a true belief in a being looking after us?
These situations are the best opportunities to look right
inside our heart (our spirit), to get an idea of how far we
have come in the path of tazkiyah and to diagnose weaknesses
in our beliefs and actions, aiming to do our best to rectify
them.
3. How do we
spend our time when we are alone? Let us imagine a very close
friend that we cannot wait to be alone with, as his/her
company is so enjoyable. Do we enjoy the company of God when
we are alone with Him and no one else is there to interrupt?
In fact, do we even realize that He is there and we can never
be alone? It seems quite easy to be mindful of God and to get
engaged in His remembrance when we are in the company of
others. In the best scenario, this is because being in the
company of the God-fearing, or at least God-aware people,
encourages us to remember the Lord. In the worst scenario,
this is because we like showing off. However the real test and
therefore the real measurement tool is when we are alone and
have some time available to spend as we wish. In that
situation, do we spend the time in disobeying God, or do we
spend it in ignoring him? Or do we spend at least some of the
available time “with Him?”
4. How much of
our spiritual energy is spent on dealing with “anger”, “taking
offence easily”, “worrying”, “jealousy”, “being suspicious of
others”, “being pessimistic” and so on? Each of these is an
indication of a defect in our soul and deserves special
attention. The person who is in the path of tazkiyah
has such a big heart, such clear thought and such passion to
move on in this path that he will rarely become angry for a
personal reason and will hardly become offended by a fellow
human being. Likewise, he does not go to extremes in worrying
about and over-analyzing his worldly affairs, for he
appreciates the purpose of his life, he is aware of the fact
that he is a servant of God and that everything happens under
the control of the One who knows everything and is all Wise.
For such a
person, feeling jealousy is one of the most shameful and
disappointing weaknesses that requires immediate
rectification. The beauty and peace that arises due to being
in the path of tazkiyah brings about a generally positive and
optimistic spirit to the person that it never allows him to be
suspicious of others. In addition, others find it to be a
pleasure to be around him due to his enjoyable personality and
in particular his optimistic (but not unrealistic) perspective
of life and the affairs of life.
Each of the
above mentioned spiritual defects could be significantly
influential in damaging a person’s efforts in the path of
tazkiyah. On the other hand, the degree to which a person has
been successful in avoiding these spiritual defects is a fair
indication of his or her success in tazkiyah. This of course
does not mean that only these four measures are influential in
our spiritual purification.
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